Wednesday, July 26, 2006

No title plzzz...

I was thinking for a longtime like to what to write. I didnt get any topic or idea. Let me start off with something....Dont ask me wat it is about because I am thinking seriously wat that something can be!!!!!
My life.... at workplace its monotonous. Nothing is goddamn interesting!!!Daily come to office, check whether you got somework to do, continue with other work. I suppose I cant say that I should sit idle if there is no work. Here people have something called INNOVATION. Sounds very interesting... I had some ideas and thoughts which can be implemented. So seriously jotted them down and searched site for subsistence of similar ideas. I was appaled as someone has those ideas already!!! I got discouraged.But how can be so lagging behind when people are far ahead of you...Something wrong withe the previous sentence. Leave it........
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Thats what was going on office... I mean to say is going...It will definitely change in a period of time as our manager is changing. Its very difficult to assimilate this issue... Well one day or the other it ought to happen...I mean I am talking about the change thats going to happen in my office... or in my professional life...etc etc.

My life... I mean personal life....God!!!! Cant describe it. I wish I am very good at putting things in the right way at the right time. Well...this life is also monotonous....But there are moments in office which can be relished...talking to my frens...chatting....I cant do these things at home...because I am busy watching TV...hehehe...bad joke right!!!!

One thing I dont understand in my life is...wat are my expectations??? wat the hell am i living for??? just to make a living by earning for eating or for mere existence....looks bit complicated when I think of it more...But its so....ok ok... I thought of writing more... But I am not able to put things...

Many a times I wonder wat for I am here....
How would it be be if I keep myself in other soul...
Am I satisfying my ego really!!! No not at all....
There's always a feedback I get when something is done...
Its lost the moment I get another...Why is it so???
How could I try to retain that???
I dont know the answer, let time answer or
rather my frens should help me in that!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 03, 2006

Chilukur temple....

This temple is very famous in whole Andhra.... I really dont know if its famous in whole Andhra, but I am damn sure that it is very famous in Telangana and Hyderabad. I have heard alot about this temple...that there is no need for offerings and should see God directly and stuff.... I was really wondering why anything..like strike something havent happened for such kind of new rules in a temple. Now heard a new thing that government is trying to aquire it....I guess its run by some private pujari's...thats why its safe till now....
I wanna tell some interesting things I noticed there....
The most horrible thing is I planned to visit on weekend....And everyone can understand what a weekend is!!!!!Got a bus at Mehadipatnam and I was shocked to notice that almost all of them got down at one stop!!The journey was good...watching green grass and trees everyone. I didnt notice that speciality in Hyd till now. Thought that Hyd is short of greenary...ofcourse it is!!! But not to that extent what I thought....
After getting down there I could see beautiful Himayat Sagar lake and the tall buildings of Miyapur which reminds me of Hogwarts school in Harry potter :-)
Interesting right!!!! As soon as I got down, small children were deciding among themselves that this visitor would get cocunut and stuff at my place... I was shocked!!! Wat is this!!! Its me who should decide it right!!! Anyway I didnt comment anything as my sister said it common here. Later entered temple..... I could see people standing in queue. I thought its a small one and could end in 30 mins... But I was wrong.... The moment the queue in the outer entrance has ended...the other queue has started... I was really amazed by looking at all those zig-zagged lines and people chanting "Govindaaaaaa Goooovindaaa" and never complaining about things there...I was wondering how many more queues are there as such... My mom was literally shocked. My sister asusual she knows everything about this stuff.
Atlast I entered temple. I was perplexed again to see people going around the temple doing pradakshanas like small children playing ring-a-roses game!!!! Ofcourse the major difference is children stop in the middle and these people decided not to!!! :-)
I could see people having a pen and paper in their hand... literally running around the temple pushing people backwards as if they ought to win a race.....
Well I decided to make pradakshanas very slowly thinking abt God with concentration... I was successful for the first two rounds....I missed my mom and sister in that crowd. Then I became a part of the crowd.. :-) ... couldnt do anything more than that....
The management over the temple was very good.... they were pleading for the visitors to stop doing 108 pradakshanas and do it sometime later. I was happy that something good is going on in this country.... While doing pradakshanas I was thinking what could literally drive those people to come here and pray. Suppose I have a wish...Is it that I do really aim for that to prove the existence of God, the almighty!!!! Or is it that I firmly believe that God is there and he will do that for me!!!! I really didnt understand that thing.....
As far as I am concerned I really dont know which is true!!! Can justify myself only when my wish comes true. I have heard from a lot of people about this becoming true. I should ask this question once to those guys....
Well I came out of the temple and started back to home....It was really a pleasant journey...btw I forgot one more thing...While I was standing in queue with my mom and sis, my sister was giving instructions as to how should I see God... what to do and what not to do...Some guys who were standing infront of me were laughing at my ignorance and my doubts which I was asking my sister... for which she doesnt know the answers.
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Thats it!!!!